Half a decade ago, I took this website down with the intention to cull some of the archives – – keep items I thought were important to me and lose the rest, and then redesign it and relaunch it. I never got back around to it. I mean, I tried a few times. I pulled a backup and transferred it to my new hosting account and started weeding out the crap that I wrote on my blog since 2001. I always got stalled and distracted by other things.
Let’s face it, I write a lot. I’ve been writing books on WordPress since 2006. Over those 12 years, I’ve probably published 15 books in total – – most of them newer editions of my earlier titles – but it’s still a lot of writing and a lot of time. The thought of keeping a personal site up to date with stuff was too much. So I never came back here.
That is, until recently. 5 years later, someone somewhere in my publisher’s office made a comment to someone about how the domain that is littered throughout a lot of my published works doesn’t exist anymore, which sparked a conversation around why. Instead of making my excuses, I figured it was just easier to get it back up. I’m also in the midst of an extremely crazy deadline for my latest book, and what you’re reading here is an example of my procrastination. I have procrastination down to a science – if you ever need any tips, hit me up. I’ve got you covered.
None of my archives exist here, at least not yet. I don’t know that I’m going to commit to putting them here either. I have them, but maybe that is enough. It’s ironic that my entire career revolves around online publishing for both business and pleasure, and yet I don’t find that to be a priority for myself. I often feel that it’s not necessary for me to add to the noise on the internet. Although, that doesn’t stop me from being somewhat prolific on Twitter, particularly around topics such as politics and Packers football, so I guess that argument is out the window.
There exists a necessary narcissism in performance, it’s a basic requirement. Blogging is performance art, just like it is for actors, musicians, authors … there is an inherent sense of vanity and ego that says “HEY! I HAVE SOMETHING TO SHOW YOU AND I’D LIKE YOU TO PAY ATTENTION MAYBE!“
I struggle with the concept of publishing my thoughts on the web as if the world needs them to be ‘out there’, adding to the noise. Something beyond marketing product or service, which I have done a fair amount of during my time on the web. In the 5 years that I’ve enjoyed the peace of not having a personal website to maintain, I’ve enjoyed a great deal of that time working with clients and helping them find their voice to enable them to own their corner of the web. I’ve learned a lot around running a business, working with people, employing people and balancing life demands with work demands to gain enough understanding that work demands ARE life demands, at least they are when you run your own gig.
I’ve learned a lot. Loved a lot. Lost a lot. I’ve failed some, I’ve succeeded some. 5 years is a long time, actually – so, just for now… hello, again.