It’s official – I’m deprived.
No, I did not say depraved – – so knock it off!
For the last week – – sex has been out of the question. Why? It’s my doctor’s fault, completely. Ok – maybe not completely…I suppose there is some action I could take to solve this – but I’m unwilling to, at the moment.
I’m 35 and I have that awful habit of smoking. Yes, yes – I know. I’m a nurse, I should know better, blah blah blah — be that as it may, it’s a habit and it remains unbroken. I accept full responsiblity for this and want it to be known that I am not planning a lawsuit against Phillip Morris.
Chris and I have talked about quitting – but so far, that’s as far as that journey has taken us. Until I actually do quit – – and have stayed nicotine ‘sober’ for at least 6 months, my doctor would not renew my prescription for birth control pills.
I’m 35. He says that the cut off for women who smoke is 35 – he will not, under any circumstances, renew the prescription. He gave me a few alternatives:
- Quit smoking – remain smoke free for 6 months
- Abstain from sex
#1 isn’t possible because I can’t wait that long for birth control coverage (though I really should start thinking seriouslly about quitting smoking), #2 is definately NOT an option, #3 isn’t something I want to think about yet, #4 all I have to say is ICK!, #5 is messy and too intrusive upon the romantic moments in life – – which leaves me with #6.
Chris and I talked about #3 – however, we’re not ready to rule out kids completely. He’s 32 – never been married, and has no children, himself – and he hasn’t made the decision that he never wants children – and I want that door to remain open for now, just in case. I explained to my doc that I’m in a serious relationship with a man who I will probably spend the rest of my life with – so we’re not ruling out having children together…..yet.
So, on Thursday I go in for this IUD thing. Since he told me he wouldn’t give me the birth control pills, and until I’m covered – Chris and I are abstaining. While we haven’t ruled out having children – – we know for sure we don’t want them now — goodness no! lol
Well, we’re not completely abstaining….*cough*…there are…ahem…other ways, ya know – – but that’s another entry all together *grin*
So if I seem a little on edge – – there’s a good reason for it lol